“How can we continue to see the world as real if the self that is determining it as real is intangible?”

——“What the Bleep Do We Know”

"We have to remember that what we observe is not nature in itself but nature exposed to our method of questioning."

——Werner Heisenberg

Though I have never delved into its boring, recondite words about philology and philosophy, the book "Pursuit of Truth", by W. V. Quine, is always on the top of my bookshelf. Yes, I collected this book simply because I like its title, which is always reminding me of a basic motivation of being alive: To know the truth.

Yeah, I know, you are also seeking for some answers. You feel uncomfortable when your perception is confined to a certain level; you will be scared if you suddenly lose the foundation of cognition. But still, just like me, you are holding the belief that the truth exists, accessible and touchable.

So, I know again. You will be shocked slightly by the movie “What the Bleep Do We Know” (or “What the #$*! Do We Know”), which have discussed some basic principles about quantum mechanism and neurochemistry in an animating way.

This movie/documentary tried to modify our old illusion of the ultimate truth. The so-called reality was firstly replaced by possibility according to Heisenberg ‘s uncertainty principle. “what we observe is not nature in itself but nature exposed to our method of questioning.” Then, it was demonstrated that our perceptions were affected strongly by ingrained attitudes about ourselves. We can not understand something if we lack the initial awareness of it. The Consequent conclusion sadly turned out to be the truth does never exists.

Certainly it is not a new idea since we are all familiar with the basic concepts of Quantum mechanics and some empiricisms, but it is really fascinating when all these concepts were smartly, vividly, and gorgeously re-interpreted in screen.

Bagdad, "What the Bleep Do We Know"

The directors here chose an interpretation of quantum physics involved the human consciousness, namely “consciousness creates reality” (see the Bleep_Study_Guide, p26). I am not a supporter of mysticism, but the following descriptions of the collapse of classic physics are quite interesting:

Reality: “the world changes in subtle ways depending on how we wish to observe it”. It is “possibility that some aspects of observation may subtly persist even into classical domains.”

Locality: “With nonlocality it is no longer true that unmediated action at a distance is not possible. In fact, such actions are required.”

Causality: “the fixed arrow of time is now known to be a persistent illusion.” “Sequences of events depend on the perspectives of the observers.”

Continuity: “some discontinuities in the fabric of reality. Space and time are neither smooth nor contiguous.”

Do the Connections between quantum effect and macroscopical events (or consciousness) really exist? Who knows. After all, none of us can tell what exactly happen in this world so far.

By the way, I am really addicted to the angel face of Amanda (Marlee Matlin) now. Maybe Keats is right:

Truth is beauty;

Beauty truth.

Angel Amanda (Marlee matlin)

" The brain appears to possess a special area which we might call poetic memory and which records everything that charms or touches us, that makes our lives beautiful."
                                         

               - The unbearable lightness of being- Milan Kundera

 
记录，较创作或评论而言，显然没有太多的思维火光。
但我始终认为，其至少与前两者一样，为一种善行。
这种解放使我在偶尔翻到这张日偏食照片后，肆意沉浸在强烈的回归感中。

将少年的我引向深邃星空的原动力仍然不明。
但细细回想，可能的原因不外下面四个：

1、火流星，在那个夜晚那个山包唤醒了我的求知欲。
2、5cm双筒望远镜，发现星空深处的景象和某个梦境吻合。
3、性早熟，使我需要追求对象但又暂时没有女伴。
4、对蒙着“终极”或“统一”意味的东西的偏好。

无论如何，我的确把这种追求具体化了。

首先是初中短命而幼稚的“青研会”。
（非常记挂它的Logo：至今仍让我觉得美的不可言喻的不可能图形！）
经历了偷硫酸，解三等分角，写递归算法的狂热后，我发现：
康德是对的！
原来最能给人安慰的还是凌晨三点头顶的璀璨星空！

基于以星座之名认识女孩子的深层动机，进而在高中风风火火的创立了我的“天文爱好者协会”。
尽管Logo做的非常幼稚，还是吸引了学校1/5人的浩大队伍仰头向天。
恩，上面所说的日食照片就是在1998年8月22日日偏食观测时拍下的。

 记忆片断：日偏食，不可能图形，会刊封面图，丑陋的Logo

我的少年时代肯定是非常寂寞的。
因为我那时不仅在深夜的屋顶看星移斗转，找梅西耶天体，还躺在望远镜旁对着星空自慰；
我居然很平静而长久的把高潮留给了狮子座流星雨，波普彗星，以及图书馆里似懂非懂的宇宙理论。

今天看来，
星空于我的魅力在于，你永远只能去探索它而无法彻底理解它。
但她又是如此体贴你爱与被爱的欲望，
一直用她的永恒，告知你的生命平凡并快乐，
同时用她的母性，强化你灵魂的弱处。

当然，除了慰籍，需感恩还有星空给我的浪漫素材。
曾经木蚋的我，那时终于领悟：“我要送你宇宙最大的玫瑰”（麒麟座玫瑰星云）诸如此类的甜言蜜语；
也终于学会了如何在教女孩子认星座时，找时机从侧面轻轻亲她的脸。
这方面最成功的案例莫过于在我的第一封情书里，相当适合的引用了天琴座俄耳甫斯的故事。这直接导致了我的诗情记忆区的扩容。

宇宙中最大的玫瑰—— 麒麟座玫瑰星云

和星空的缘份，还渗透到了人生的际遇中。
中学期间撰写的两篇与天文相关的小论文，帮助我得到保送的机会。
毕业时，我把我的天文望远镜和读书笔记捐给了学校；
2000年7月6日，象征性的参加了高考，第一志愿为南大物理和天文系。

如今离天文学已相当遥远，但往昔的点滴留在我的诗情记忆区。
疲惫，孤独或伤感的时候，我仍习惯抬头望星空；
我渴望通过与星光的对视，来重新获得我应有的力量，
并同时告诉我永远的恋人：

我仍活着，我仍爱你！